For now I will just be known as Tractor Man, but more on than that sometime in the future

When I was twenty I wrote this song and now several decades on I can still remember the words, silly I know but maybe it was something in that song that struck a chord recently. (Sorry about the attempt at humour but that’s the way I am and the way I think and that’s the way this blog will be travelling.)

It’s a song that was never heard by any one except for possibly the family cat who would wander into my bedroom while I was attempting to learn to play the guitar. I should add that it never stayed for long. I have at periods of my life thought about the song and other poetry I wrote at that time. Now all manuscripts are lost (thankfully you may say when you read the song) but some fragments remain in some tiny corner of my mind. (Or should that be in a tiny mind there are some fragments?) No I was correct with the first attempt.

So this is only the verse of the song

I can stand in the pouring rain,

Let the water-cool my brain,

Why should I ever complain?

Sunny days follow the rain.

So why after so many years did I recall the song? Well, recently there was a time of reflection and suddenly the words were on my tongue and out free to air once again. It was the very positive nature of the words that made me think that that’s how I felt at twenty and that’s how I think now. It became clear why those simple lines from many years ago came back. I’d thought that all of my life I’d had that feeling of being a positive thinker, a positive person. So when I was diagnosed with Bowel Cancer I was shocked but not in despair, being a positive thinker and always able to “look on the bright side of life.” So here was a new experience, a new adventure, and one that many have experienced before me and I think statistically many others will follow.

So my approach to this situation was to think…….

 

“There is nothing funny about Bowel Cancer until you contract it, then you can make it as funny as you like”

I am sure there are many very useful blogs and websites that will help you if you find yourself in the same position. I hope I don’t upset anybody with my approach to this disease but it was the way I thought at the start and still do. I hope you can enjoy the journey. You may find some of this information and my experiences useful.

One point about this journey is that it’s not happening in real time. What I mean by this is that it’s not an account as it happens. Its all been condensed to a weekly blog of the events, which in reality happened just over a year ago. It was my intention to write as it was taking place but to be honest there were weeks when I was just getting on with life.

Tractor man

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